Scared to Hope
I didn’t want to be here. But I am, we are. Our second, and final, round of IVF. If it doesn’t work this time then we’ve already made the decision not to do it again; it’s too costly. The financial cost is easy to calculate and I am grateful we Read more…
Waves Of Grief
This was a hard week. It’s been a week I have been dreading for months. A week which I kept hoping and praying wouldn’t happen. A week where I learned that grief really does come in waves! This is the week that our IVF babies would have been due. It’s Read more…
Hopeful Beginnings
Full of faith and excited that we could soon be starting a family I googled different apps that would help us know when my most fertile days were and tracked them conscientiously! It was exciting. We were full of hope. This could be our last Christmas without kids. I was Read more…
Meet in the Middle
In marriage there are always times of compromise or meeting in the middle but we gave that a different meaning today! We were stuck in different cities during the fertile time of the month, so what do you do? Our answer – meet in the middle! It might seem extravagant Read more…
Father’s Day Pain
Why do some churches insist on doing this? We were visiting my in-laws for Father’s Day and visited a local church. All the Dads were asked to stand. Not, men but Dads. They were honoured and praised, singled out for being Dads. Don’t get me wrong, I think Dads (and Read more…
What Lies Ahead?
I registered with a family doctor today and was so impressed with and moved by her empathy. After the obligatory “how much alcohol do you drink per week?” I joked that it depended on the time of the month! She was so understanding as we discussed how hard the waiting Read more…
Peeing On A Stick
I’ve been tracking my ovulation cycle with those sticks that you pee on. Does the line appear this time? If so we need to have sex, right now!! I think the line shows that you are likely to ovulate within the next 24-48 hours but you get the picture! Morning Read more…
What Are We Getting Into?
Although we haven’t technically been trying for a full year, we’ve been referred to the fertility clinic in town. Questions about our eating, drinking and smoking habits, medical histories, physical examinations, blood work and then booked in for various other tests and ultrasounds. We were given all the stats as Read more…