Infertility
Can I Still Trust God?
Have you ever felt betrayed by God? Let down by him? Felt like he has forgotten you or is ignoring you? I’ve been there. Can we trust God? Is God trustworthy? How do we heal from betrayal? This is my story.
Infertility
When We’ve Given Up Hope
I had all but given up hope for my squash seedlings, so imagine my surprise when they kept sprouting everywhere! I was left with more than my garden could contain. What a reminder to me, that God can take our dried up, dead and discarded dreams, and breathe life into them.
Infertility
Waiting Well
How do you wait well for something, especially if you are as impatient as I am? I spent a day praying and reflecting on precisely this topic. It’s hard to wait well when you want something so much. I spent most of the time asking “What should I do?” to Read more…
Joy in Trials?
Listening to God Do you ever wonder if God actually speaks to us? (If you don’t believe in God then I guess I know your answer, but can I ask you to come with me on this one, just for a little while?) I prayed A LOT when we knew Read more…
Scared to Hope
I didn’t want to be here. But I am, we are. Our second, and final, round of IVF. If it doesn’t work this time then we’ve already made the decision not to do it again; it’s too costly. The financial cost is easy to calculate and I am grateful we Read more…
Waves Of Grief
This was a hard week. It’s been a week I have been dreading for months. A week which I kept hoping and praying wouldn’t happen. A week where I learned that grief really does come in waves! This is the week that our IVF babies would have been due. It’s Read more…
Hopeful Beginnings
Full of faith and excited that we could soon be starting a family I googled different apps that would help us know when my most fertile days were and tracked them conscientiously! It was exciting. We were full of hope. This could be our last Christmas without kids. I was Read more…
Meet in the Middle
In marriage there are always times of compromise or meeting in the middle but we gave that a different meaning today! We were stuck in different cities during the fertile time of the month, so what do you do? Our answer – meet in the middle! It might seem extravagant Read more…