Being In Control I like being in control! I feel in control of most areas of my life, but there are some things we have zero control over: the weather, what other people think of us, and has been increasingly evident, whether I get pregnant or not! We also can’t Read more…
Remembering Anniversaries have always been hard for me, maybe because I have a thing for dates so I find it easy to remember what I was doing this time last year, even without Facebook to remind me! When it comes to my fertility journey though, the anniversaries always seem to Read more…
Turning 40 I have not been looking forward to my birthday this year. If I’m honest it’s been a shadow hanging over me for the past few years as I’ve got ever closer to the big 4-0. It doesn’t matter how many times I have told myself, or others have Read more…
I was searching for a completely different passage entirely, but when I read this psalm I knew this what was I needed to hear. Sometimes God works like that. Here are my reflections on Psalm 145. As you take time to read the words of the psalm, I hope that Read more…
Sometimes I feel like I am just surviving this journey of infertility, whereas other days I feel like I am thriving despite it. That pendulum swing probably won’t change soon what with hormones, monthly cycles and other factors, but I wanted to reflect today on what helps me thrive. If Read more…
Something deep within me believed that this would be the month. I can’t explain why, but it just felt like that. Then, when I was driving, I saw the most beautiful complete rainbow over the valley. It felt like God was confirming my feeling, reminding me of the promise of Read more…
October 15: Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day October marks Pregnancy and Infant Loss Awareness Month, with October 15 a special day to remember all those who have lost babies and infants, whether through miscarriage, ectopic pregnancy, still birth or death of an infant. Loss of a child, whether in Read more…
Why do I believe I’ll be a Mum? Faith is a strange thing. It’s not rational. You can strongly believe and doubt at the same time. Or at least I can! So when I say I have faith that we will have children, that doesn’t mean I’m not plagued by Read more…
How do you wait well for something, especially if you are as impatient as I am? I spent a day praying and reflecting on precisely this topic. It’s hard to wait well when you want something so much. I spent most of the time asking “What should I do?” to Read more…
In response to my post last month, I was encouraged to write some ideas as to what would be helpful to say to us childless couples. It has also encouraged me to write some tips for those of us who are reluctantly childless, so watch this space for a future Read more…