Remembering Anniversaries have always been hard for me, maybe because I have a thing for dates so I find it easy to remember what I was doing this time last year, even without Facebook to remind me! When it comes to my fertility journey though, the anniversaries always seem to Read more…
Some days I’m barely surviving. Other days, I catch glimpses of thriving. Infertility has a way of pulling us back and forth like a tide — hormones, monthly cycles, expectations and grief all tangled together. But over time, I’ve found a few gentle practices that help me live more fully in the midst of it all. They don’t remove the pain, but they help me carry it with more hope. If you’re walking a similar road, maybe these will help you too. This isn’t a checklist. There’s no perfect formula. Just honest reflections from one woman to another, offering light in a heavy place.
Something deep within me believed that this would be the month. I can’t explain why, but it just felt like that. Then, when I was driving, I saw the most beautiful complete rainbow over the valley. It felt like God was confirming my feeling, reminding me of the promise of Read more…
Listening to God Do you ever wonder if God actually speaks to us? (If you don’t believe in God then I guess I know your answer, but can I ask you to come with me on this one, just for a little while?) I prayed A LOT when we knew Read more…
I didn’t want to be here. But I am, we are. Our second, and final, round of IVF. If it doesn’t work this time then we’ve already made the decision not to do it again; it’s too costly. The financial cost is easy to calculate and I am grateful we Read more…
This was a hard week. It’s been a week I have been dreading for months. A week which I kept hoping and praying wouldn’t happen. A week where I learned that grief really does come in waves! This is the week that our IVF babies would have been due. It’s Read more…